Yesterday morning started early with a 5 and a bit mile run. It was drizzly but so warm and humid, and felt a little bit like running through a hot bath! I did just over 35 minutes running and then a mixture of walking and running as I was feeling a bit tender after the binge the night before.
I also cut my run short which took me past this beautiful church.
I spent the rest of the morning doing a few chores and blog reading whilst eating this breakfast which was amazing!
It was banana soft serve with flaxseed, nuts, coconut and peanut butter. Banana and peanut butter is seriously the best combination ever! I also had a couple of slices of protein bread on the side.
Because I'd had breakfast so late I ended up not having lunch, which I was a bit frustrated with as I'm trying to eat more this week!
After the last few days of messed up eating I was feeling a bit down. So I put on this shocking pink shirt to cheer me up! Apparently wearing bright colours makes you more approachable?
Spent the rest of the weekend with my boyfriend going for lovely walks in the sun, saying hello to the local ducks
watching trashy TV and going out for lunch today at Pizza Express again. I pushed myself today to have something a bit different, having the goats cheese and vegetable salad which was super yummy.
Today's been a bit of a write-off generally as despite going to bed at 9.30 last night (that's a record even for me) there was a party in the next door's garden where they were belting out music and even had a PA system. I felt like I was in a club! This morning I felt like I'd barely got any sleep, and woke up feeling rough. I think a mixture of still getting over the binges, poor sleeping and a pollen increase knocked me sideways a bit!
I normally feel like a weekend doing nothing is wasted, but I think this time it was exactly what I needed. Sometimes doing nothing is everything!
If you're not questioning the scales yet, here's another article to make you question their worth
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I've really enjoyed my weekend, though as usual it's gone too quickly.
My Saturday started off with a fab run along the Thames. I did a total of 5.88 miles, running for the first 3 and a bit miles, then doing walking-running intervals for the rest. I got out early enough that even though it was sunny it wasn't too warm, and it just felt lovely :)
After that I braved central London to try and finish off my garden party shopping. I caught the train to Waterloo station and then planned on having a leisurely walk up to Oxford Street.
It would have been leisurely, except it was a bazillion degrees...and I got lost. I don't even know how that happened! I've walked there before, and had a map, and then all of a sudden I had no idea where I was! Where I happened to be was "a long way in the wrong direction". By the time I got to Oxford Street, realised I was at the wrong end of the street for the shop I needed, and walked to the right end I was already pretty shattered! Shopping turns out to be a good workout!
I successfully got the Monsoon dress I tried on last weekend.
And after trying on every white jacket on Oxford Street I found one that looked ok from Zara so went with that (by that point I was very much done with shopping!). Just a hat and shoes to get now...
Stopped off at Pret for some lunch, finding the air con vent and sitting directly underneath it in an effort to cool down! That along with my superfood salad really sorted me out :)
There was one final stop at Whole Foods for some coconut water before I chilled out in Leicester Square waiting for my boyfriend to arrive (I'm hoping I got some serious girlfriend brownie points for not dragging him round with me!). After a quick Costa pitstop we went to go and see The Wind Rises at the cinema, which even I (who doesn't mind, but doesn't love, anime films) thought was pretty good.
Today has been spent in a much more leisurely fashion (which my legs have very much thanked me for!). I had a late get up, and then spent time mooching around Richmond, where we grabbed some lunch at Zizzi's (I had the Super Zucca salad) and had another Costa trip.
TEAPOT FACE!
I have to say the best thing I've eaten all week was this:
Minus the cat. Chocolate CoYo coconut yoghurt, frozen blackberries, and tahini-dipped medjool date. I've tried coconut yoghurt before and not been all that fussed, but this was amazing!
I've struggled a bit with my eating/thoughts this weekend. Yesterday I was so impressed myself because I purposefully ate loads knowing I'd been on a longer run and had been on my feet all day. And it was all really good, nutritious food, bar a quesadilla kit for dinner with my bf which had quite a lot of additives in (and I really noticed my tummy grumbling about afterwards!). But I was feeling incredibly low about my body image yesterday in particular, comparing myself to literally every other person who walked past, and being super aware of every millimetre of fat on my body. I had to constantly keep reminding myself that the important thing in life is to be healthy, and that every body's healthy looks different. Plus, it's that time of the month, and we all know what that does to our mindset! So, let's focus on ourselves, forget about everyone else's body, and enjoy life!
One final thing: my Ruled by the Scales post got a link on Laura's amazing Keeping Healthy Getting Stylish blog! I love the positive messages that Laura spreads through her blog and community work, so this meant such a lot - thanks Laura :)
Hi everyone, I hope you’ve all had wonderful weekends!
I spent mine back at home with my parents in Cheshire, which
has been so lovely, but of course far too short.
At the start of June myself, my parents and one of my
brothers are going to a garden party at Buckingham Palace, hosted by the Queen
and a selection of other royal family members! I cannot put into words how
excited I am.
However, naturally, this requires a new outfit, so me and Mum
decided we’d spend this weekend going shopping together so we could give each other a bit of a pep talk when we got tired and depressed. There are some pretty strict regulations as to what you have to wear: women
are required to wear day dresses (with straps of more than an inch thick, and
no shorter than knee length) with a hat or fascinator.
So on Saturday we went into Manchester to hit the shops. I think
it’s safe to say that we tried on pretty much every dress in Manchester. We were
shopping for 6 HOURS! A few of my favourites are below (excuse the poor quality: they're a picture of a picture...long story).
We also tried on some hats. This was the bit I was most
worried about with the outfit, as I’m not usually a hat wearer. But I LOVED the
hats! So excited to have an excuse to get to wear one :)
We stopped for a lunch break in Starbucks where I just had
an Innocent Antioxidant smoothie (I’m quickly becoming addicted to these) along
with an apple and some almonds I’d brought with me. Not the most sustaining
lunch – I think if I’d had something proper there would have been much less dragging
of my legs through the afternoon!
I also stopped off at Holland and Barrett to pick up a
couple of Nakd bars in the penny sale, as I knew they’d be good for travelling
home on the Sunday.
In the end, neither of us actually came back with anything,
but I think I’m going to get the Monsoon dress. I love the Karen Millen one, but I think there may a bit too much leg on show for the Queen! I thought the Phase Eight dress was very Kate Middleton, but the colour was a bit bright. My Mum’s got a few options
up her sleeve too, so I consider the trip a half success!
This is the first shopping trip I’ve been on in a long time.
I think it’s fair to say going shopping puts the fear of God in me. So many
mirrors, sometimes unflattering lighting, and no other option than to face up
to what clothing size you currently are. My wardrobe at the moment is full of
clothes that are old and tatty and need replacing, but I just haven’t had the
confidence to go and buy new ones. To make matters worse, I know that if I’m going
to get help for my disordered eating there’s a large chance I’ll put on weight,
and I don’t want to buy clothes now only to have to later replace them because
they no longer fit. I’m not made of money!
However you know what? It wasn’t too bad. The dresses I was
trying on were beautiful, and there were only a couple of pieces of clothing
that I couldn’t fit into. I put most of my weight on around my hips, stomach
and thighs, whilst my bust (unfortunately!) doesn’t change so much, so most of
the dresses fitted around my top fine, and then glided over the bits I was less
comfortable with. There were times I saw myself in the mirror and felt
disgusted and panicky about how the body I saw didn’t reflect the body I had a
few years ago at the worst of my disordered eating. But I reminded myself that I
want to get better, and that in getting better I was going to most likely put
on weight, but not from my bingeing, instead through eating proper amounts of
healthy, nourishing food.
My evening was spent watching one of my favourite events of
the entire year: EUROVISION! Growing up my parents always used to watch it, and
it would be a treat to be able to stay up and watch right to the end (although I’m
not sure why as the voting is the most boring part!), so it was nice to relive
the tradition. And Eurovision didn’t fail with its usual randomness, glitter,
political controversy, and annoyingly catchy cheesy dance beats. I thought the
winner was a worthy one, and glad the UK entry didn’t come last – it was far
too catchy for that!
Sunday has been lovely and leisurely. Despite some lashing
rain I headed out for a 5k this morning, and it was a brilliant one. Running up
here is always so much more pleasant than in London, and I don’t know whether
it’s the country air or just the stunning scenery, but I also run so much
better!
The rest of the day was spent just chatting with my parents,
discussing private therapists for me to go and see, and just generally relaxing
and catching up with some social media. Unfortunately the day’s flown by, and
all too soon it was time to get my train, which is where I’m currently sat
typing this from.
Eating hasn’t been great over the weekend. I missed breakfast
on the Saturday, mostly because I didn’t have time, and partly for fear of eating
before trying on clothes, and as I said, lunch wasn’t particularly sustaining. I
did have a bit of a binge in the evening once my parents had gone to bed. I always
panic because I feel I have to eat the yummy foods they have in the house
whilst I have the chance, before I go back to where I don’t allow myself these
foods, and only eat restricted calories. I of course felt disgusting afterwards,
and particularly when I weighed myself Sunday morning.
Sunday I had a bit of a queasy and upset stomach after
breakfast (I think probably due to anxiety at returning to London rather than
anything I ate) so I tried to keep my eats fairly plain, and did have a ginger
bread Nakd bar as ginger can settle the stomach.
Enjoy the rest of your Sundays!
E x
What did you do with your weekends? Do you enjoy going
shopping?
